I had a family reunion this past weekend. It was great to catch up on family members that I don't get to see that often. As they say you can't pick your family but you can pick your friends. For the most part I would pick most of my family as friends, everyone generally gets a long and cares for each other. I have noticed that not one person asked me how I was doing. Which to me means people are comfortable with me looking better or should I say healthy. I do look healthy and for the most part on the outside you wouldn't know I have leukemia. Most people don't know how to respond when they ask me how long I have to take my meds, and I respond "until they quit working or I quit working". Which to me is the where the problem is with me, yes I am thankful that the medicine
Ok it is a couple months later, I realized I hadn't actually finished this thought. I can count the number of times on one had, wait maybe never, that I have used the "cancer card". I was helping friends and family a couple of weekends ago. After supper some of the guys wanted me to play cards, as I was sitting on a recliner with my legs up because I had over done it during the day. I repeatedly told them I wasn't going to play as my legs hurt. Then one of my family members said "you always say your legs hurt" so that is when I said, "I tell you what, I will give you a couple of my chemo pills and you tell me how you feel in the morning". I probably shouldn't have said this even though it was true, I do complain about my legs hurting but usually I don't let it interfere with what I want to do. I usually just know they are going to hurt and keep going. But I have learned a little better on how hard I can push myself and when to quit. When I go to far I get physically drained and in pain to the point of being sick and I don't like that. I don't like not being able to do the things I want to do but I have learned to get buy by doing a little less or maybe taking more breaks in the middle. I don't mind that other people don't realize how I feel most of the time, sometime it just bugs the crap out of me and this was one of those days.
